I was diagnosed in November of this year after having my first manic episode in October of this year. I remember my manic episode started off with my sleeping patterns changing. I'd wake up every hour throughout the night. It soon got to the point where I was sleeping about an hour to two hours a night. I remember my thoughts were going at a mile a second. I had a constant rush of ideas and thoughts and after days of not getting sleep my episode became psychotic. I thought my pet cats could read my mind. I remember I'd be thinking about wanting to pet them, then all of the sudden my cat would come near me wanting to be pet .. So I thought that the cat was receiving messages from me. I got really into the religion Wicca and I would study for hours upon hours a day. I felt so high and I was so excited about the abilities within myself and what I could possibly do with my life. I became an earth hippie freak. I'd freak out if my boyfriend would turn the lights on during the daytime. Accusing him of hurting our planet and wasting energy. I was convinced after listening to MGMT's electric feel that I had an electric current running through my veins. I thought I had the wiccan goddess and god within me and that I myself was almost turning into a god.
As of right now I've sunk from my manic episode into a depressive episode. My thoughts no longer race, my brain actually feels foggy and dead. I don't have much motivation and I don't really care about anything. I like being manic depressive though. I feel that it's a gift .. And as crazy as it might sound to some of you, I cannot wait until I'm manic again
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